Jessica Alba

why the F can\’t i hear the things i say?

or realize what im saying before i say things?

well actually i know what im saying a lot
but then other times i dont, and it catches me off gaurd,
especially in school like if the teacher calls on me i freeze up
in this effort to be more outgoing i would force myself to be vocal and say things but that backfired kinda sometimes=/

this may seem like a small thing but its actually really huge for me
it makes me not want to leave my house ever
stop socializing etc

some people tell me im normal and over-reacting
but then ive been told to get a voice recorder, and my mom was always picking apart everything i said when i opened my mouth as kid and still does actually

um i ask my therapist about this and she’s not very helpful. advice?

honestly just whats a good rule of thumb to stop doubting yourself in this situation? because im becoming way too reclusive and people are like wtf is your problem sara